Dream Escape

I step downstairs into the dark,
To a stink of ocean bream,
All alone in the middle of friends,
In my pillow, I hide to scream.

I want to be someone else,
Someone whole, normal, free,
I’m tired of depending on others,
My life at an apogee.

A puzzle to my conscious self,
A vapid life that seems a lie,
If not me, then . . who am I?
Someone different deep inside.

Now, warm in silent dream escape,
In my dream, the pain subsides,
Here I am hopeful for happiness,
No need from myself to hide.

Oh, grant me a dream tonight,
An antidote for my defeat,
Not a care if I ever wake up,
“Please God let me go to sleep.”